When people ask me 
What I want to do in the future
I honestly don't know.
Parts of me wants to have a great career
Where I can travel and have kids
But part of me honestly can't see that happening.
Part of me genuinely believes I won't get to that point
Because I'll have killed myself by then.
On one side, I want this amazing future to look forward to
But on the other
I can't stand to live much longer in this world