Suicide
I think about it all the time. It would be so easy to just end all
of this pain, suffering, and self hate that I feel on a daily
basis. No more depression, no more cutting, just ignorant bliss. I
don't know what will happen, but what I do know is that it will
be better than the way I'm living right now. I can't live
with who I am. I am living in constant hell, and it's killing
me; it's slowly driving me insane. So the real question is: how
will I do it? There are so many options: hanging, suffocation,
drowning, slitting my wrists, overdose, jupming, electrocution, and
so many more. I've written so many suicide notes in the past
years, and I've never actually gone through with it. Suicide is
NOT the coward's way out. A person has to be going through the
worst physical and emotional pain imaginable to even think about
ending their own life. And I've finally gotten to that point.
I'm hanging onto a small strand of hope that maybe my life will
get better. But my hope is wearing thin, and soon that strand will
break. Maybe tonight, maybe tomorrow. Who knows? But I will be
brave enough to do what I've had planned for so many
years.
Suicide I think about it all the time. It would be so easy to
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May 21, 2013 9:30pm
