As popular as you were, I
never noticed that when I looked at you.
I never saw your face clearly. My eyes never lingered on your
strong muscles,
Because I always saw you as an arrogant d*ck.
You were mean to my friends. I hated you, but you scared the sh*t
out of me.
I don't know...Something about the light brown eyes, the
curved eyebrows, the angled chin.
And then, one day last year....
I don't know what happened.
I was having problems in computers class,
And when I asked for help you came over.
I recognized that spark of kindness,
Though at that time I was heartbroken over another
guy.
I should have known. Our story was pretty predictable, even
then.
Then one week in October,
we were assigned seats next to each other.
We laughed at the same stuff.
We got along well.
You were a right little gentleman.
From then on, I started noticing you.
And I realized you were so much more than what people said.
You were funny, smart, mature and responsible and gentle and
loving....
When you wanted to be anyway. You were still being mean.
You caught me glancing in your direction much more often than I
should have.
I doubted myself. Maybe I should give up. He was an *sshole
anyway.
But part of me, however small, however foolish, thought...that
maybe, just maybe...I could heal him.
I never really gave up. I kept coming back, getting up.
And then...by some miracle, I thought you were noticing me
too.
I caught you looking back at me.
And then that day in PE, you accidentally whacked that ball at
the side of my head.
You were apologizing. Over and over.
It didn't really hurt. I was fine, and I told you that, but
you still looked guilty.
I wondered...but surely you would do it for anyone else.
The glances have gotten more frequent.
Do you love me the way I love you?
Suddenly, I feel doubtful.
Maybe I was wrong. Maybe you really aren't the one. Maybe
I'll just be another girl to you, another piece of your
past.
The year is ending. Will you make a move? I'm too much of a
chicken to try.
And if we became us, would that really be a good
decision?
Do you really want me in your life?
