I've recently gotten close with this one boy.
His name is common, and he looks like any other boy.
But he's different to me.
I've known him for about two years now, except this year I started talking to him.
People told me he was just like the rest.
Tool, dou.che, as.shole, idiot.
It takes someone who really knows him to understand that he is not.
He's had a rough life.
Kicked out of his house at 15, forced to move, stuck in a boring town full of nobodys.

I've had this small crush on him since the beginning of the year.
But recently, now that school is coming to a close, it's growing stronger.
I've realized that I don't want to miss him.
I want him to stay in my life for as long as possible.
But I don't want to just hang out with him.
I want to do everything with him.
He's not perfect but neither am I.
I don't know how I'm going to bring this on to him.
But I'm going to have to before June 1.
I can't lose my courage to do this.
I wish I could say I know what he would say but I don't.
I'm just hoping that I'm not the only one who sees this chemistry between us.
We've clicked from day one to day 180.
And I want that 180 to turn into years.

I recently realized that I needed to go through that one bad boyfriend to finally get what I deserve.
And I'm here now, and I want so badly to deserve him.