Sometimes I do things I
can't explain. I dont know why, obviously, because like I
said I can't explain. Did you ever sit and wonder to
yourself, "What the crap just went wrong?"
What might it be that I can't overcome?
What is it that I need so much that I can't be civilized
enough?
What might I be doing to trigger these?
The answer to these questions is still unknown, and it drives me
crazy trying to wrap my head around it.
I've hurt so many people, been hurt by so many people...
Family, friends, and certain individuals..
And, I keep making the same mistakes...
Some are new, but repeated, and then go away. They are like a bad
trend. Its like doing the dougie or jerking in todays day and
then trying to do it again and people are just like "um what
are you doing?"
But the main problem I need to solve is stopping this. Thinking
before I act. There should never be a repeat. No other
"dougie" or "jerk" moves.
When an idea comes to my head Ive told myself many times, you
will get into trouble. Many times I refrain from doing the idea,
sometimes I slip letting myself think its harmless but in reality
it wasn't. This isn't.
I don't know what will happen from here, but Im hoping God
can help me. Help me correct myself and teach me what to do
right.
Thank you.
