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My name is Mariella Isabella.

I have red hair, and my eyes are blue.

CAUTION: May be weird but my boyfriend loves me. 10.13.13

MesMonsterz1121
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July 6, 2013 5:09am UTC

I sometimes feel like Im the girlfriend that cooks, Nd always asks if your okay, and takes care of you, and everything a girlfriend should do... but sometimes I dont feel pretty enough for you.. i dont feel beautiful enough for you. i dont feel that you want to go out anywhere with me because of my attitude sometimes. Yeah i can be weird and quirky but you tell me thats why you love me. But, what do i do when all I wanna do is go somewhere fun and you always want to stay home in bed? :/

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MesMonsterz1121
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July 2, 2013 7:24pm UTC

I cant help but lay awake some nights and think about anything but what I've ever done to you and how we could've been different but then i realize, maybe this is better it happened... made us both stronger... it just hurts that I cant look at you the same..

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MesMonsterz1121
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June 18, 2013 3:52pm UTC

I'm so scared and I don't know what to do anymore. I know I deserve all thats happening to me because of the past but I need the lost item to turn up.. I am freaking out and I don't want my life to change. I shouldn't have lied all those times because its like the boy who cried wolf... The one day that the boy is telling the truth he isn't helped. Im praying to St. Anthony that he can help me... St.Anthony, St.Anthony, please come around, somethings been lost and cannot be found... please St. Anthony... you and God hand and hand are the only things that can save me..

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MesMonsterz1121
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May 16, 2013 5:19pm UTC

Give up and go home. Alone, and suffer some more. This head of stone let’s no one in anymore. My effort is never enough. I’ll start unpacking all of my stuff. Cause I’ve come to know my place. So let’s wreck everything I’ve built except the base. You have no idea how unproductive it is to fall in and out of you as often as I do. And lately I’ve been feeling grey but today. I’m alright no thanks to you. Think I’ll go and roam outside your boundary. Walk on the ridge. Far away from the city.

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MesMonsterz1121
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May 16, 2013 5:15pm UTC

If I hold on much longer I might break my hands. I must respect the space you have but you tread in my lands. And all things aside I know we both know where we stand. I’m stuck here. And you’re there and that’s it. This quicksand it pulls me under. It pulls me underneath her. And I’m learning how to live with my unintended consequences. While you’re busy jumping fences. Afraid to stay in one spot for too long. Biting the bait. Pulling me down. Telling myself to rebuild and rebound. Yet always hoping to see you around. Cause that’s my idea of safe and sound. But I’d rather gamble lose all and face death than rot here exhausted from this waste of breath. I always waste my breath. I’m trying hard. Real hard. Everyday not to lose my mind. But its slipping.

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MesMonsterz1121
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May 16, 2013 5:10pm UTC

Maybe someday you'll look up
And barely conscious, you'll say to no one
"Isn't something missing?”
You won't cry for my absence,I know
You forgot me long ago
Am I that unimportant?
Am I so insignificant?
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?
Even though I'm the sacrifice
You won't try for me, not now
Though I'd die to know you love me
I'm all aloneIsn't someone missing me?
Please, please, forgive me
But I won't be home again
I know what you do to yourself
I breathe deep and cry out"
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?"
Even though I'm the sacrifice
You won't try for me, not now
Though I'd die to know you love me
I'm all aloneIsn't someone missing me?
And if I bleed, I'll bleed
Knowing you don't care
And if I sleep just to dream of you
I'll wake without you there
Isn't something missing?
Isn't something
Even though I'm the sacrifice
You won't try for me, not now
Though I'd die to know you love me
I'm all alone
Isn't something missing?

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MesMonsterz1121
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May 15, 2013 11:28pm UTC

i cant help but want to cry it all out. Be over sensitive.

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MesMonsterz1121
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May 9, 2013 9:45pm UTC

you never know whether someone is falling apart in front of you...

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MesMonsterz1121
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April 30, 2013 7:39pm UTC

Sometimes I do things I can't explain. I dont know why, obviously, because like I said I can't explain. Did you ever sit and wonder to yourself, "What the crap just went wrong?"
What might it be that I can't overcome?
What is it that I need so much that I can't be civilized enough?
What might I be doing to trigger these?
The answer to these questions is still unknown, and it drives me crazy trying to wrap my head around it.
I've hurt so many people, been hurt by so many people... Family, friends, and certain individuals..
And, I keep making the same mistakes...
Some are new, but repeated, and then go away. They are like a bad trend. Its like doing the dougie or jerking in todays day and then trying to do it again and people are just like "um what are you doing?"
But the main problem I need to solve is stopping this. Thinking before I act. There should never be a repeat. No other "dougie" or "jerk" moves.
When an idea comes to my head Ive told myself many times, you will get into trouble. Many times I refrain from doing the idea, sometimes I slip letting myself think its harmless but in reality it wasn't. This isn't.
I don't know what will happen from here, but Im hoping God can help me. Help me correct myself and teach me what to do right.
Thank you.

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MesMonsterz1121
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April 30, 2013 7:31pm UTC

So confused, don't know what to do about anything anymore I wish i were five years old again... Things were so much easier....

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MesMonsterz1121
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April 25, 2013 10:52pm UTC

YOU KNOW WHAT SUCKS?
When the person you care the most about stops talking to you.
No explanation or reason to why they stopped either.

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MesMonsterz1121
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April 25, 2013 10:50pm UTC

Does it kill you like it kills me... to know that I care so much...?

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MesMonsterz1121
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April 25, 2013 10:47pm UTC

Friendships don't have to last forever. if they're treating you badly or making you feel like crap about yourself, it is okay to leave, it is okay to make new friends, because the length of a friendship doesn't ensure the quality of it. people change. But, even though this sounds great.. I will always care about that 'bestfriend' i had.
No matter what happens, I'll always love her. She was my sister, my bestfriend, my family.. This really hurts me....

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April 25, 2013 10:38pm UTC

Friends of friends prove untrustworthy. Be gone, just like you were at the last party, no SOS until all the bottles are empty. Now my hunger isn't wasted anymore, cause I'm younger and I'm tired and sore. I know where you've been, Never again will I let someone in.

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MesMonsterz1121
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April 24, 2013 4:31pm UTC

Cut the crap, be real with me. I want to find the one who came to school everyday, woke up for the world, practiced honesty, her business was hers. Will I ever see you again?

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MesMonsterz1121
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April 24, 2013 6:55am UTC

I dwell on it nightly, tread swiftly and lightly. Make up the lost ground, and see what you dont see. All the questions aside, i asked and you lied. And now my hands are tied.

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MesMonsterz1121
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April 23, 2013 5:32pm UTC

Out of everything I've done so far, people think I wouldnt exist. out of everything I've been through, people probably think I'm dramatic or a botch if they dont know me. but, what I really wish people could understand: I wont tell everyone my story. Those are for special ears who cant hurt me.

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MesMonsterz1121
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April 23, 2013 5:29pm UTC

When its dead silent, try to think about the many people NOT staring at you.

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MesMonsterz1121
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April 21, 2013 1:57am UTC

Just wishes that once..just once..I could do something right. Where nobody gets hurt from it, not even me

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MesMonsterz1121
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April 21, 2013 1:46am UTC

If I could choose between two paths, which would I actually choose really? The Left where nothing goes right, or the Right where there's nothing left?

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