I'm so scared of the future. I don't have any idea of what I'm going to do next year, and I only have a couple months to decide. I don't want to grow up, move out, get a job, pay bills. I know I'm going to end up alone, cause I suck at keeping in contact with people. I'll probably stop talking to all my school friends within a couple months of graduation. I don't want to go to college, but everyone expects me to. All I really want is to curl up in a ball and hide from everything. Maybe it would be easier to just die.