Dear Family Members,
Aunt D. I don't understand you. You bully me and
critisize me daily. I'm not coming to visit you anylonger,
I've decided that today, because I don't need that. I
don't need you to tell me how I make up things. Because, of
course, one day I jut woke up and thought 'You know what?
I'm going to pretend I can't breath when I run to an
extent. Yeah, that sounds fun. And I'm going to pretend I
can't eat ice cream, because every teenager hates ice
cream." You accuse me of stealing from my father, when he
gave me the money. You slapped me and told me I was becoming a
liar, when I did nothing. You force me to clean your house
which I never even go to. I sick of feeling like you rule me.
I'm sorry your child isn't good at school, but that
doesn't mean you should ridicule me, because I am. It's
not my fault that I am the way I am. I want to be a good kid,
but that doesn't mean I'm going to let you bully me,
because guess what? I'm not your toy and I am certainly not
your child to discipline. No I didn't stay up texting til 1
am, because I didn't have my phone, that was my iPod and I
was listening to music. No you may no longer steal my phone and
look through my texts. You are not my ruler and you are not the
boss of me. Please leave me alone.
Dad, I understand things are hard, but
please realize that I'm trying my best. I've done
everything. I play the sports I hate just because you want me
to play. I get good grades and follow every single one of your
rules, so I can make thing easier on you. I'm sorry if
I'm not perfect and I'm sorry I make mistakes, but I
don't think I will ever be perfected. And you need to
accept that just like I have. I'd love if you'd notice
all the hard work I put into making you happy, but I guess
I'm not good enough.
Mom, thank you for being there and letting
me talk to you. I'm sorry I don't tell you how I feel
always. It's hard for me to say how I feel, because I
don't want to be a burden. Thank you.
Sister, who I'll not name, I want to
say I'm sorry for you, but you're not sorry for what
you've done. And I want to forgive you, but I can't
forgive you yet. If you're not sorry I don't know if I
can forgive you. I hope you realize what is good for you soon
and that I want to help you, but I can't. I'm working
on forgiving you, but it's hard. I'm sorry.
Other sister, I'm sorry that i write
about love. I'm sorry if I seem depressed. But I am.
I'm depressed and I don't want to be, but sometimes it
takes over me. I'm sorry I seem sad sometimes, but I am.
Sometimes I just have to break. I've been trying to stay
strong, but sometimes I can't. I talk about love because I
really feel like I'm beginning to peice it together. I
don't fully know it, but I think I know what love might be,
or at least part of it. That doesn't mean I'm rushing
my life, but it does mean I'm trying to figure things
out.
Myself. I'm sorry I don't
understand you sometimes. I'm sorry I put you down
sometimes, but I want to say that one day you'll be
completely happy. I'm sorry I put you down for so long, i
know that scarred you. Forget what they say when you feel down,
because one day you'll have a smile no ine can erase.
You'll find the perfect guy for you, just keep your
standards high and don't edit them. (:
Person reading this, Thanks for reading, but I just really
needed to write down how I feel. I just had to write down the
things I want to say to some people.
