Sick Chapter Six
I woke up with a sense of energy
but I felt like I was dying inside also.I quickly took a shower
and dresses in black skinny jeans,dark purple and brushed my hair
then I was ready to go.I hated how I had to go to school and
endure my bullies who were Jessamine and Leyla.Jessamine was
blonde hair and had nice chocolate brown eyes the kind that
would make any person melt when she begged.Like even a kidnapper
would be charmed by her because of her eyes.Leyla was 5'7 and
she was already covering magazine issues with her honey brown
locks of hair and emerald green eyes.They were hypnotizing and I
felt like any guy would be memerized by her just by looking at
her eyes.They always seem like they ran off a cat walk or
something and I just sit there and scowl.
The bell of the house rang and I saw Hunter come in.I scowled as
my day being ruined.He walked in and just took a seat in the
living room.
"Umm hi?Why are you here?"I asked.
"Aww suger what a great way to invite a guy in your
house.I'm here to check up on you."Hunter said winking
at me with his green eyes.
"Stop okay?Don't act sweet like every guy does and use
me.I know you really don't care for me and just want to win
me so you don't at a bet you had gotten."I said
harshly.
"You think this is fake?!"Hunter shouted then
said,"F/ck kitten I always tried to help you.You don't
even know my story and why I decided to help you.God your
freaking being stubborn on receiving help.Can't you see im
trying to f/cking help you?"He said all that in a rush and
his green eyes were tensed with anger.I was frozen inside but I
STILL did'n't believe him.Like everyone says I don't
deserve anything.It hurts but all their words hit me like
bullets.
"You know wat!?YOU decided to help me and I never want to be
helped.!I f/cking don't deserve it okay?You might be just
like the other guys who haven't cared for me and just made me
into a game that they just wanted to win!Don't you see I
don't care if I die!I just want to die already God!"I
said in a rush and we were staring at each other.A flush creeped
into my face and there was a silence.The phone rang and rang
until he finally said something.
"The phone is ringing."He said.
"I know I'm right here captain ovbious."I said and
went to pick up the phone.
"Is this Valencia Martinez?"The voice said on the other
line.
"No this is her daughter Jennifer Martinez and may I ask who
this is?"I asked wondering who this was.
"I am nurse carla calling from the hospital Care and Share
and your sister is a patient here named Karen Martinez am I
calling the right place?"Nurse Carla asked.
"Yes Karen is my sister and is everything okay
ma'am?"I asked fear tightening my heart.
"Since we couldn't contact your mother the next person
on the list was you and honey I am extremely sorry but Karen
Martinez has passed away in coma."the nurse said and I felt
my world breaking.My sister had been in coma ever our dad died
and she was 15 years old.Our dad died when I was 7 and Karen was
4.The memory still scares me and I try to hide it but I
can't.The phone had slipped and I took my bike out and
Hunter was chasing me.
"What's wrong kitten?"He asked over and over but I
was frozen in the time moment of what the nurse said.I had
finally arrived at the hosptial and I rushed in to see my
sister.Her eyes were closed as they were usally but her heart
montior was flat and I bowed my head and started
crying.Hunter had followed me and was silent now forgetting the
harsh words I had told him.I had a broken family and I was
the only one standing.I suddenly felt scared and didn't know
what to say.I had to get the funeral papers and everything else
ready.Tears poured out everything I've been hiding for
18 years and Hunter held me there close to him like I was a
precious person.When the truth was I was a freak like the words
were etched in my back.I remember when my mom did that when I was
16.It hurted like he// and I cried but she screamed at me.On my
back we're the words my mom etched with a knife were
freak,useless,wasted space and stupid.It was a reminder of who I
really was.The words Jessamine and Leyla said were true and it
hurts.No one could save me and now the person who was my best
friend and sister is gone.Gone forever.Every Christmas I came
here and talked to her.I cam here almost every weekend and
sometimes she'd twitch her toe.With that happening I had hope
she would wake up but now she's gone.Even if she was in coma
her prescence calmed me down and these nurses have sympathized me
when I was a kid.Everytime I tried tellig my mom that I
would tell an adult about her hurting me she would threaten to
kill me.I couldn't because I had to live for my sister to see
her awake.But now I have nothing to live for.No hope and no love
can save me.I'm all alone and death is the only way
out.Hunter's heartbeat was loud and steady as I was hugging
him but even Hunter doesn't know my full story like my sister
did.I had to go home and make all my suicidal letters and send
them to everyone I know of.It was best when Hunter wasn't
around because he would do something to change my mind and I
didn't want to bear realities pain.
"Kitten look at me?"Hunter asked sweetly but dangerous
words.
I lifted my head and looked him."Why Hunter?"
"Kitten we will get through this.You're sister wants you
to be happy and I'm sure she's smiling from
heaven."Hunter said encouragingly but it was too
late.Nothing can hold me or change my mind.Nothing can.
Teaser:"Jenny no!"he shouted.
A/N:Thanks to everyone reading it and second of all this is a
very emotional chapter I think and it hurts to see Jenny be this
much pain.Rememeber you're not alone and you're all
beautiful and special just the way you are.Goodnight
everyone.
