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SHANE'S
P.O.V.
Chapter 29
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At around noon
the next day I invited her to come over to swim. I put on my
white bathing suit with blue flowers and a gray wife beater. She
had her brother drop her off and when she rang the doorbell, I
waited about fifteen seconds before getting it because I
didn't want to make it seem like I was waiting for her, even
though I was.
"Hey," I said answering the door,
"Come in."
"Hey," she said giving me a kiss.
I took her to the back yard and immediately
took my shirt off, "Let's go!" I ran off the diving
board and did a flip into the pool.
When I came back up, she was still outside
the pool. "Come on! Don't tell me you don't know how
to swim," I said. That's what happened with Ava. She was
embarrassed that she didn't know how so she didn't want
to come in. I had to teach her but I didn't mind because she
held on to me a lot in the water.
"I know how to swim!" she laughed.
"I'm on the varsity swim team at school!"
"Then what's taking so long?" I
laughed. She took off her shorts and purple tank top and started
walking into the pool. She was wearing a pink bikini and I
couldn't help but notice that her boobs were huge. We started
talking and I don't know how we got onto the topic but we
started talking about our problems. I could tell that she trusted
me so I decided I could trust her too.
"One day, everyone kinda just turned on
me. All my friends were gone. Everyone always used to text me to
hang out and always told me things and they loved me. Then one
day they decided they didn't like me anymore. They think
I'm a biitch and annoying but I act like that because I'm
tired of people walking all over me. And at home, my family-
whatever. I still have Jo but sometimes I feel like I have no
one," she said. I felt really bad for her. I couldn't
imagine what would happen if one day everyone just decided they
hated me.
"What about your family?"
"I'm sure you've heard of my brother.
He's always getting in to trouble or getting high or drunk
and going to parties and whatever. My parents always pay
attention to him because of it. And my little brother and sister
both have ADHD so of course my parents feel bad for them and pay
attention to them. I'm kinda just there. I'm forgotten.
The only time my mom remembers me is to babysit and I'm like
the second parent because my dad doesn't do anything. My dad
and I don't even have a relationship."
"I know what you mean with the whole dad
thing. My dad has always favored Corinne and I never understood
what I did wrong. He always said he loved us equally but I know
it's not true. And with the whole friends thing, how everyone
you loved left you, that was like my dad. I loved him and he left
my family for a twenty five year old Hooter's waitress.
I've watched my mom cry so many times because of him and
I've seen my sister cry too. It's awful. I have to be
strong for them but I really can't anymore," I said.
Savannah gave me a hug to try to make me feel better, but that
wouldn't bring my dad back.
We started talking about other problems too, and
she mentioned how she had a low self-esteem. I couldn't
understand why though- she was so pretty.
"Guys never like me, and I get it, it's
because no one likes me. They can say it's because I'm
weird or ugly, but deep down, I know a lot of it has to do with
me being hated. And when people tell you enough times that
you're worthless and ugly and fat and a biitch, you start to
believe them," she said. I couldn't believe she thought
those things about herself.
"Well if it makes you feel any better, I
don't think any of those things about you," I said
truthfully.
"Thanks," she fake laughed and fake
smiled, wiping a tear from her eye because she didn't want to
cry. That's when I noticed how scarred her wrist was. I
didn't want to say anything though- obviously that's not
something you want to talk about.
"People tell me to kill myself and that
everyone would be happier if I was dead. If I could start over, I
would. I don't want people hating me. I don't know why
everyone thinks I do. Why would I want to be alone?" she
said.
"Even though I'm popular and was popular
at my old school, I've always felt alone. There was no one I
trusted to be there for me and help me with my problems.
You're the first person who knows what really happened with
the divorce," I said truthfully. Ava didn't
even know that's why my dad left us. "No one
understands me."
"I know exactly how you feel," she
said.
"I promise you, I'll always be here when
you need me. No matter what. Whether it's just to talk or to
get away from everything, I'll always be here for you,"
I said.
"Me too," she smiled.
I couldn't believe how much I trusted her and
was actually thankful that I had someone there to listen. I
couldn't believe how much she understood, and how alike we
were.
I couldn't believe how much I
truly liked her.
"I'm only trying to let you know
that what I feel is true. And I'm only me when I'm with
you," -Only Me When I'm With You, Taylor Swift
Note: uh oh
