I consciously stepped on to the scale. 98.6 pounds. You've got to be kidding me. I stepped off of the dreadful thing and walked over to my lengthy mirror. I looked at myself staring back at me. I focused first on my facial features, then on my body. I saw horror flash before me. I looked away. I moved from the mirror to my closet. I looked through my baggy clothing, ashamed of how I hide myself. I picked a loose fitting shirt and some skinny jeans. I dreaded the way I looked. I plastered the makeup on my face, hoping to be beautiful. I still didn't see beauty looking back at me. I grabbed my school bag and started down the stairs. I was almost out the door when my mom called from the kitchen. "Alex, I have some pancakes made for you and your brother!" "No thanks, I'm not hungry!" I called, thinking about the 98 pounds I saw in the mirror this moring. How pathetic of me. I walked out the door and to my bus stop. I sat down on the ground, my head cocked toward where the bus would be coming from. I heard footsteps coming from thee other way. I turned around to see Trevor, almost to the bus stop. I stood up. "Hey, Alex. You look pretty today." He half smiled at me. I smiled really big. "Thanks, Trevor. " Trevor of course didn't know, but I've had the biggest crush on him since the 6th grade. It's been 4 years and I still haven't gotten over him. His perfect hair, his beautiful blue eyes, his smile, his everything. I was getting lost in his dreamy eyes with a gleaming gold ring around them when his soft voice broke me out of my forever fantasy life. "You should sit by me. I don't have anyone else to sit by." I practically died. "Okay!" I said, a little to jumpy at the chance. He gave a short laugh. "You sound tense. Lighten up." I calmed down a little at his request. Anything for him. "You're right," I agreed, "It's been a tense morning for me. " Just as I finished my sentence, the bus pulled around the corner. I tightened by bag up on my shoulder and waited for it to stop. The doors opened and I looked into it to see an empty bus (we were the first stop.) "Ladies first."  I stepped on to the bus and took the seat 3 seats in front of the very last seat, Trevor sitting down after me. "Wanna talk about your tense morning? " He said sweetly. I looked at him. He was so perfect. I regret this moment every day of my life. I said "No, it's fine." I turned back facing the front, and then opened my mouth again to speak. Nothing came out. I kept quiet.