This is a vent. If
you don't like vents, don't read it. I've been
depressed lately, over nothing. I will cry, even when I'm
the happiest I could be in a while. I'm not sure why this
keeps happening. I will be so happy one moment,
and bearing back tears the next. I'm not scared to
admit that I'm not happy with my life. I'm scared to
admit that I'm willing to throw it away. I know things
can get better, but everything gets worse for me. I'm
scared for myself, I'm scared for the pain I endure. I
actually started cutting again, and I'm so ashamed. it has
been 8 months or more, and I ruined all the hard work.
I'm so stupid, I feel like a complete idiot. Here
lately I've just been putting myself down because I
can't take making myself all happy for no reason, because
there's really no reason. But today, I sat down
outside. For a month now, I've been trying to get
these two kittens to come to me. But they were to scared
because their wild. I was sitting on my patio out back,
and I was crying. and I couldn't stop. One of the
kittens came up to me, and sat in front of me. I just stared at
it, and burst out laughing for no reason, and of course scared
it. It was like a sign from god, telling me that I needed
to cheer up, and I sure in the hell did. So thank you god, for
making everything better me. and thank you to anyone who took
the time to read this.
lynskywalker · 1 decade ago
Stay strong. And this shouldn't be under vent, it should be under inspiration. Cause your story is inspiring. Stay strong, and hold on. The harder you fall, the higher you bounce :)
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