last night i let so much out. i said things that i never even said to myself outloud, but yet i found myself sitting on my porch with my mom pouring my heart out more then i ever had to anyone in my life. i just sat there and let myself cry i didnt even try to hide out because for once in my life i just didnt care who saw me breakdown and have my walls down, for the first time i really let someone in and it scared me a little bit. i feel closer to my mother more than i ever had and i couldnt be happier.