My judgements clouded
Chp 30

"Okay everyone! Time to go!" The manager said and we followed him back to the limo. Once we were inside his face lit up into a smile. "Great job boys. But i do have some bad news." I looked around to all the boys smiling faces turn into frowns. "You only have five more days here." He said and leaned back into the seat. I looked at Niall. My heart was beating so fast and it felt like it was at the bottom of my stomach. I felt the tightening feeling in my throat and the tears start to form in my eyes. Niall pulled me closer to him. No one said anything for the rest of the ride back. Niall just played with my hair and leaned his head on mine. We got to the hotel and still in silence walked into the suite. I sighed. "Well we can't sit around being unhappy. I know it's hard but we need to make the best of it." Liam said and he was right. "Lets go to the beach." I said my voice dry still not sure if i was going to cry or not. Everyone nodded and the boys went to go put swim trunks on. I turned to Gabby who was sitting on the couch and she looked just as bad as me. I sat down and hugged her and the tears over flowed from my eyes and Gabby did too. I tried not to cry too much because it would make everyone even more upset than what they already were. We heard someone walking towards us so we pulled appart and wiped our tears. I turned my head and started chewing on my thumb. I looked up and it was Niall. Pain was written all over his face and i couldn't take it. I turned again and let the tears run down my cheeks. They came faster and harder and my breathing started to become shakey. I felt Niall's arms wrap around me. "Nel listen, i knew it was going to be hard. I don't want to leave you. I don't know how i'm going to deal with not seeing you everyday. The other boys have girlfriends and they feel the same way and so do the girls but they get through it. Please don't cry it's killing me." He said making me feel a little better. I hugged him back. "I - i - i 'm s-sorry." I said sniffling and wiping my tears. "Nel it's going to be okay sweet heart." He cooed and i tried calming down before the other boys came over. I looked over at Gabby and she looked like she was never crying. I was so jealous that she could do that. The rest of the boys all came in and we got up and headed to the beach. "Nel are you alright?" Louis asked. I nodded still a little unsure about talking. Lou came over and put his arm around my shoulders. "Nel listen i know it's hard for you right now and i know exactly how you feel because i hate leaving Eleanor too and she feels exactly how you feel when it happens to, but we're still together and i love her and i know Niall and he'll do anything to keep you two together as long as you want to. Don't worry about it now have fun and save the tears for when we leave." He said and smiled and squeezed my shoulders. "Thanks Lou." I said. He really did make me feel a lot better. I had to forget that they were leaving in five days and just have a good time while they were still here, especially with Niall. I turned to him and he was already looking at me. I smiled and wrapped my arms around his neck and looked straight into his eyes and kissed him. Everyone left us alone and didn't interupt for once. I finally pulled away and he smiled and pressed his forhead against mine. "Feeling better?" He whispered. I pecked him on the lips and nodded. "Good, I like it better when you smile." He said and grabbed my hand and we started walking to the beach to catch up with everyone.