IMTHEKINDOFGIRL;

WHO IS FALLING APART DAY BY DAY, WHO IS SCARED OF HER FUTURE AND HAUNTED BY HER PAST. IM THE KIND OF GIRL WHO PLASTERS A SMILE ON HER FACE AND IS ALWAYS LAUGHING EVEN KNOW IM NOT HAPPY. bUT i dont want people thinking im weak. people look at me and think im fine. but they dont even know me. my brother was bullied when he was younger, hes really quiet, and now i found out he takes pills because he might be depressed. hes the strongest person i know and my inspiration, i love him. my best friend cuts herself and thinks shes ugly when shes the most beautiful person in the world. i never see my other best friend, she goes to a different school and we only have time on the weekends. my family is really low on money. we sometimes dont have money for electricity, cellphones or heat. and go without it. we owe a lot of people money. i hate it but i cant do anything about it and it kills me because i cant have things other kids get in seconds. i have to work for everything. i dont trust anyone. i lost my old best friend and it still hurts me deep inside. i want her back but i cant. i have no love life. never had a boyfriend or my first kiss. im really quiet and i hate it. i hate alot about myself and i cant take it anymore. i constantly compare myself to other people. everyone is so much prettier and better than me in every way.

this is my life. this is who i am. and i put a smile on my face everyday. because im going to smile through my tears.