I'm tired of living up to peoples expections.

I'm the perfect girl right?
The pretty cheerleader
The straight A daughter
The nicest girl in the whole school,
There is more to than that.
The smile that i throw at everyone
some people don't know its forced.
Nobody could see the scars that aren't visible.
You know what I HATE most,
it's that i have to be pretty
because thats what society wants
I have to stay skinny or i would be a total regect.
I have to straighten my hair because my curly hair isn't pretty enough.
I have to go to all partys.
I can't be seen with nerd because then nobody will like me. 
I am societys little barbie doll. 
but what everyone doesn't see
is that I can't trust anybody.
I'm afraid to open up.
I spend so much of my time trying to live up to what everyone
expects me to be. 
My parents expect so much from me.
I just don't even know who i am anymore.
 
nmf.