i get really angry easily,
i always get into arguments.
in school, i know what im trying to say, but i cant say it. i cant put it into words.
apparently i sit up too straight.
I cant sleep, i have such a hard time with it.
i cant focus.
I cant concentrate on anything for too long.
people can call my name 1323 times, and i wont hear them.
other times, ill hear my name, when no one says it.
I see "ghosts" a lot.
I was just scrolling through witty today, and saw a post about schizophrenia.
I didnt know what it meant, so i googled it.
look at the f**king symptoms.
my god, half of the things on there are exactally like me.
and maybe im dead wrong, or just paranoid,
but i dont know.
i can tell you so many stories about when i see and hear things i cant explain, and im the only one that sees them. it scares me.
i dont want to be all pessimistic here, but so many people in my family have disorders like this, like autism, etc. so it's not completely unlikely. just what the hell do i do?
im not telling my parents. -___-.
they'll think im doing some attention sh*t thing. when thats the LAST thing i want.
help? someone make me feel better? and don't tell me im being stupid, and its deffinately not this, because i've already heard that, and it doesnt help.
i hate feeling like this. someone, anyone, help?