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Chapter Five
Three days later, I awoke to a darker room than usual. Then it hit me. Today was my first day of school. Gulp.Camryn had left for university last night, so the only person I would have with me was my brother. He had either been in his room or out on his longboard for the past 4 days, unpacking and I guess getting to know the town.
I slowly got up and tiptoed to the washroom. I brushed my hair and teeth, washed my face and but on some mascara. I hated mirrors. I avoided them at all costs, even closing my eyes in bathrooms. Every time I was forced to look all I saw were imperfections. The freckle above my lip. The bumps in my hair. How bland I was. Ugly. That word came to my mind a lot. Ugly, ugly, ugly. It taunted me. I had a monster living in my mind, drilling me down further each day. It’s words affixed to my skin like invisible tattoos. I hated myself because of it.
I stepped into my closet and pulled out an outfit. I wasn’t ready, but I had no choice. I walked into the hall and almost collided with my brother.
“Woah, hey Gen, how, um, are you feeling?” He asked. My... Illness, I guess, had never been a comfortable topic with him. I don’t think he understood the complexity of it.
“Decent, considering it’s this early. And yourself?”
“Nervous, first day’s aren’t the easiest thing when your older.” He looked it.
“Yeah, especially when the town has 400 people in it.” I joked. We both laughed.
I grabbed my backpack and slipped into the backseat of the car.