you want
the truth?
well, here it is. eventually, you forget it all. first you forget
everything you learned – the dates of wars and the Pythagorean
Theorem. you especially forget everything you didn't really
learn, but just memorized the night before. you forget the names
of all but one or two of your favorite teachers, and eventually
you forget those, too. you forget your junior year class schedule
and where you used to sit and your best friend's home phone
number and the lyrics to that song you must have played a million
times. and eventually, but slowly, you forget your humiliations.
even the ones that seemed indelible just fade away. you forget
who was cool and who was not, who was pretty, smart, athletic,
and not. who went to a good college. who threw the best parties.
who had the most friends. you forget all of them. even the ones
you said you loved. and the ones you actually did. they're the
last to go. and then once you've forgotten enough, you love
someone else.