Here's to all the girls
who used to be his number
one.
The ones who waited all night for him to call, only to check the
caller ID the next morning & be disappointed.
The ones who made it through that bitter break up, dried your own
tears, & moved on with your life,
only to have him walk back in it months later like nothing ever
happened.
Those of you who cried on the first day you talked again because
you knew exactly where this phone call was going.
The ones who listened to him say, "I only want to be your
friend" one day, and the next,
listened to him say how much he loves & misses you. We
deserve something, and this is our tribute.
Here's to the ones that took him back, hoping that maybe this
time, he was different, hoping that maybe people really do
change.
We listened to our friends tell us that we were stupid for even
thinking about giving him another chance, caught crap from our
parents,
& even snuck around to see him for while. We went through the
great stage with no fights all over again.
We started this out thinking we would be just friends, &
ended up falling in love with him again.
We wanted nothing more in the world than to hear him tell us he
loved us too, that even though things were bad in the past,
they would be different this time. And when we finally heard it,
it was like we were dreaming. This is for us.
Here's to the ones who believed what he said, sat around all over
again waiting
for a phone call that might come in a few hours, or a few
days.
Here's for the tears cried and dried all over again. We wanted so
desperately to believe that he was really busy,
he couldn't possibly call us at that moment, or even that he fell
asleep early.
We trained ourselves to believe the lies because we wanted to
believe we had found the one for us.
We learned to settle for someone who didn't treat us the way we
should be treated.
Here's for the ones who did their hair and makeup & put on
their prettiest earrings, only to hear him say that he couldn't
see us today.
The ones who never believed it when people told us there might be
someone else. We just couldn't believe that he could do this to
us again.
This is for those great girls, who loved him more than words can
say, & took him back no matter what happened last time
because they couldn't bear to look back on their lives one day
& wonder "what if". This is for the girls that
stayed up all night long
listening to him whine about an ex girlfriend who cheated on him,
& cried during the entire conversation.
The ones who hoped he would realize that he deserved better, that
he deserved us.
When he said that he loved you, but he was in love with her, he
didn't mean it.
This is for the ones that held on to something that was never
there to begin with.
This is for us
girls,
who somehow managed to get him to forget about her, & get him
to tell us that he was in love with us again,
only to have him tell us three weeks later that "things were
going too fast, he needs time".
Here's to the girls who couldn't cry to their friends because of
how stupid they felt.
The ones who held it all in when things came crumbling to pieces
again.
This is for the ones who couldn't bear to even tell their mom
what was going on, for fear of an "I told you so".
The ones that could just tell that they had made a mistake by
ever allowing him into their hearts & their dreams again.
We knew that we deserved better the entire time that we deserved
a guy who would call when he said he was going to,
one that would come see us whenever he got the chance, one that
would really care about us.
We just wanted the one that we loved like that. Here's for the
ones that finally realized that he never gave a crap about
them.
Here's for the time that he broke your heart again. This is for
those days spent trying to hold back the tears,
& the tears that turned into anger, then disappointment. Here
are for us girls who finally realized that we deserve better.
This is for those confusing days, when you miss him & want
nothing more than to hear his voice, or feel his arms around your
waist.
Stay strong and remember that relationships are like broken
glass; sometimes it's better to leave it alone
rather than try to put the pieces back together & get hurt.
Remember the times you cried & how long it took you to even
be
able to look at another guy like that. When 'your song' comes on
the radio, turn the station.
When the day comes that he realizes what a mistake he made &
tries calling, turn your phone off.
When he tries coming to your house, don't answer the door. Think
of the broken promises, and the lies, the manipulation & the
tears,
the wasted moments and staying up all night wondering where the
hell he was.
Think of how your heart used to jump when your phone would
vibrate in the middle of the night
& how it fell to your stomach when you saw it wasn't him, and
realized that once again, he hadn't called when he said he was
going to.
One day you'll find a guy, who's worth all the tears, but he
won't make you cry.
You may think that you'll never care about
someone
like you did that guy that you always ran back to, but
you will.
It's going to hurt like hell, & it's going to need time to
heal, but the point is,
it will heal.
COMPLETELY worth it if you read it
all.