Vent:
I don't even know why I am still thinking of you but, it kills me everytime. When "we" first started it was crazy, it was scandolus, and to me it was perfect. I just felt like the awesome freshman girl who had a senior boy. Ha, you know that song by Taylor Swift "Fifteen"? that was my song. It described my life. "Hoping one of those senior boys will wink at you and say you know I haven't seen you around...before" that happened to me! It wasn't possible. It ended up that it was but, it ended horribly. I was so torn when I found out what you did. You cheated on me with my "best friend" and you never even apologized. Then I also found out that, you didn't even want me. I was just around to get to her. I wanted to die. Maybe just slip out of my house and run away. Anything to avoid seeing you. Now almost 8 months later I see you at our friends graduation party, and you are slow dancing with another girl. It makes me want to drink even more than I did when you cheated on me. I never used to drink, only until you came around. It was bad, my hands used to shake if I didn't have at least some alcohol in my body. Thank god one of my true friends came around to help me. Without her, I think I would have ended up with the wrong crowd. Now all I need is a new boy, to tell me I'm beautiful, that the senior was a jerk, and that all I deserve is the best. I just want someone to make me happy. When will 11:11 and my prayers kick in? Happy, happy, happy, all it seems like a dream.
JoshJ
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