unforgetableCaleb · 1 decade ago
Hey! It's been quite wahile since I've talked to you. Fill me in. I've been busy and running around and nevve really have time.
Fill me in on things.

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x0x_jay_x0x · 1 decade ago
mr.pain? ohhh yeah hes like my bestfriend :/
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want2bskinny · 1 decade ago
yes?
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JaseyRaeJay · 1 decade ago
Hey, just letting you know, the next chapter is up.

Sorry if its silly.
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BeyondTheSleepyHollows · 1 decade ago
Awh! It would've been awesome :D
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BeyondTheSleepyHollows · 1 decade ago
Oh Mai Gawd, You're a Parawhore!! :D I love you already :3 And I have like.. Other chapters up if you wanna see :P I'd love feedback, nomnomnom :F
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unforgetableCaleb · 1 decade ago
I'm not blaming her.. I told her that I need help.. I can't feel this way for the rest of my life, i don't have the strenth to kick myself for watching my best friend drown and blaming myself for it because i wasn't the one that saved him.. I told her that if she needs to go, to go.. I'm not chasing her. I can't do it. She know's i love her more than anything in this world. She knows this, before all this happened, I was with her everyday, I listened to her whenever, i helped her through all her struggles, i told her I loved her after every conversation, everytime before i left, i said, I love you. Call me when you get home so I know your okay. I was the best I could be to her. She knows i adore her and if she EVER needed to be with me, even if we aren't together, i wouldn't ever tell her know. She helped me so much and I love the girl to the moon and back 16 times.
I just wish she clearly understood my feelings, the stress, the guilt, the horror.. but honestly, nobody will ever understand. Nobody was there. I watched it. I heard it. I felt what I felt. Nobody was in my shoes. So, I'm alone on this.
As long as she knows thatT love her more than anything or anyone, i think i'm okay, and that we will get back together once I get professional help.

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YouAreTheOneINeed · 1 decade ago
Haii there beautiful(:
Chapter 2 will be up soon
Each chapter every day
(:
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unforgetableCaleb · 1 decade ago
I think he would say 'What the hell man?'
I honestly do want to believe that he would understand, understand the feeling i felt, the feeling of puking held down, to try so hard not to panic but still do anyways.. It took over my body, i stood there.. I yelled for help, He has a gorgeous sister that adored him and his family and so many friends, He was like a brother to me and not being around him, depresses me.. He's gone, that's the whole problem. I know he's gone.. i saw his casket.. I saw him in it,, and it could have been me.. I am going to transfer schools because I can't walk around because I've been everywhere in this town with Micah i have so many memories and I cant think about him without feeling like this is all my fault.. I need to run away from this.. he understood me, he knows things I would never tell my parents or anybody else, it's like i lost everything.. I lost half of me it feels like.. it's going to be such a damn struggle knowing I won't see him walking around anymore, down at riverfront with his girlfriend.. nothing.. He's gone.. and it hurts so god damn bad. ): It wasn't his time, i just up and I feel like I gave up on him.. and I hope to god that he knows how much I am going to kick myself in the for this for the rest of my life.. Theres always something that is going to remind me of Monday night, always.. I never would have dreamed that this would ever happen to me.. Does anyone understand? No because nobody watched there best friend die.. Your watching your brother, and i'm so sorry.. and I shouldnt be pouring this all on to you but it's been crazy on how much i've been needing to say and haven't said a damn word... I just miss him and Yesterday after the funeral, i went to riverfront where they got him out of the water.. Where the cross's are now at with a bunch of flowers and cried.. I hope he will watch over me and give me the strength to realize i did do all that I could, but I just can't believe it..
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unforgetableCaleb · 1 decade ago
I read your comment on my quote and I'm so sorry about your brother. I wish they could find something to help him out, but only pray that when it's time, he's not suffering anymore. Just tell him everyday and night that you love him, and tell him everything before it's to late.

-Micah was my best friend and Monday night changed my life forever. I'm not going to be the same person I was.. It was just a night supposed to be fun, going to Riverfront and swim and wait for the fireworks.. The strength I'm going to need to forgive myself.. I don't know where the hell i'm ever going to get it, or how.. He was my best friend, We're supposed to be there for each other.. I had to delete my facebook because of the wall posts I got from some people blaming me that I should have jumped in and grabbed him, the police told me that If i would have jumped in, I would be dead too. I should have reacted differently.. I yelled out, I yelled for help.. I should have jumped in.. I would do anything seriously anything too be the one in his place. He inspired so many people, he was loved by so many.. I just can't believe it.. I was at the funeral yesterday, and when they brought the Casket out.. I started bawling, people around me were like " i'm still in shock.. I can't believe it was MIcah.. " His death sunk in first thing. When I was told there was nothing they could do to bring him back.. I realized, I watched my own best friend die.. I watched it.. I can't sleep at night, I have nightmares.. I want to tell him so many things.. I just wish I could talk to him.. tell him how damn sorry I am.. ):
I can't forgive myself.. He was like my brother.. My mom got me someone to talk to about all this, but no matter who i talk to, who tell's me that I did all that I could do, that it wasn't my fault.. I could have jumped in.. I could have went with him, like bro's always have each other's back.. and I lost it. ):
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BeyondTheSleepyHollows · 1 decade ago
Chapter 1 will be up by tomorrow, if not Friday (: And I have the Prologue done if you want to read it :D
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AliceTelika · 1 decade ago
εγω Σαλονικα! Βασικα ειναι τρελο που σε λενε κι εσενα Αλικη :Ρ
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TheMorticiansDaughter* · 1 decade ago
http://www.wittyprofiles.com/q/5950256
thank you so so much. im sorta in tears freaking out right now. i hate everything
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AliceTelika · 1 decade ago
απο που ΄σαι? :Ρ
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AliceTelika · 1 decade ago
ρεε ειμαι κι εγω απο Ελλαδα, και με λεν Αλικη ο.ο αλλα ειμαι 14 :Ρ
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natureismyname · 1 decade ago
Yup
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serenaisme · 1 decade ago
HEY. c:
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foreverlove18 · 1 decade ago
http://www.wittyprofiles.com/q/5895268
Could you check it out please?
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XxXxPerfectlyImperfectXxXx · 1 decade ago
hiiiiiiiiiiiii. OmG that kitty up dur with the glasses is so cutee :)
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i_will_awake_down_the_line · 1 decade ago
i feel fat, ugly everything
i just want to be pretty
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