long, but please read </3
i've never had a boyfriend;
i've never had a real guy-friend;
i've never had a full conversation with a guy IN PERSON;
i've barely ever texted anyone for longer than 5 mins;
i''ve never been told "i love you" by any guy outside my family;
i've never been invited to a boy-girl party;
i've never been crushed on by any decent guy my age;
i've never been complimented on anything other than my drawing skills;
my parents are divorced;
one of my best friends since 4th grade told me she didn't want to be friends anymore;
my mom constantly tells me how i dress too "out there"
or that if i keep dressing like that, no boy will ever like me;
the guy i liked found out i liked him and mocks me for it behind my back;
and the "popular" girls at my school continually remind me how much they hate me,
even though i've never done anything mean to them.
the thing is;
i know that i'm pretty, and funny, and bright.
i like to talk to people,
and draw and sing and listen to music.
i'm just like any of you... i'm no different.
i have hopes and dreams just like you.
i want to be loved, and feel like i'm wanted.
but there's another part of me that is starting to believe that i really am useless.
i just need someone to tell me i'm worth something.
to stop me from cutting,
or even worse...
still_dreaming