Have you ever broken down sobbing after so long of being strong? Crumbled to the floor, hands by your face. Your face scrunches up and you let out that first gasp. You try to be quiet but eventually it becomes loud, heartwrenching sobs. You cry and cry, so much you can't breathe. You ask whoever's up there, "Why? Why me? Why this? Why can't i just be happy?" You say you want to end it all right there right then. You sob, trying to gasp breaths in between. Eventually you completely collase on the floor after. And then you just lay there. Numb.