I feel comfortable when i have my music.
Then, AND ONLY THEN,
will i truly show my emotions.
Because yes,
(this is for all you people at my school)
I HAVE FEELINGS!
I CRY
I HURT
those names you call me,
when you shove me in the corridor,
i dont sit at home like a lifeless robot
waiting for you to insult me some more,
i dread the moment i see you at the other end of the corridor.
and then i just give up
like i do every time.
i wish i didnt have to take your sh*t
but there is noting i can do against you and your army of friends.
i might not be cool like you are,
or popular,
i dont express my emotions,
but i am me.
dont make me change. i have changed too much for the sake of YOU already.
You went too far when after just a year at a new primary school,
8 year old me had my ear pinned back.
to look better
to try to fit in.
you bullied me so much i had an OPERATION to change the way i looked.
and you forced me into it.
i was fine at my old primary school.
where people would say hi everyday.
not take thepiss out of me and the way i look.
You made me what i am today.
a sad, lonely, insecure girl who cant even express her own feelings properly.
Thanks if you read that.