8/24/12.
An entire year ago today, I remember oversleeping that Friday morning and only having about 15 minutes to be dressed and ready for school (yes, i go back to school very early) so I wouldn't miss my bus. It was a new school to me; I didn't know almost anyone there, and it didn't help that my stomach was killing me because you know PMS. I left the house that morning feeling as if I looked like a total mess with frizzed hair and unclear skin. It was so hard getting used to everything and even though it was my fourth day already, I still forgot my supplies and ended up getting lost. But then the last period of the day rolled around. I still felt completely like SHlT to no end. However, this guy in my class who also rode my bus spoke to me for the first time. I didn't think much of it at first, but he complimented me and that felt good after being through so much hell in the past year or so. Then something I totally did not expect happened. When school was over he sat with ME on the bus; the shy new girl with no friends or social skills, when there were already a bunch of girls who looked like models on there. We talked a bit, not as much as I'd like to but I've never gotten this much attention before from one person, and he gave me butterflies like crazy. He was literally all I could think about that weekend, and he's still in my mind to this day. I know tons of people think that at my age I'm "too young to be in love"--hell, we never even went out with each other in the first place, but I seriously think he was my first love. Because after I found him, things that I've never really found attractive before became some of the first things I'd look for in guys. Because his flaws only made him more perfect. Because even though he probably never felt the same about me, I still learned to want the girl who was special to him to say "yes" when he asked her out. I've had crushes on guys before (and after), but I've never had feelings so intense than with him. Part of me still even wonders why he is so special to me. But I am still pretty sure that Friday, August 24, 2012 is a day that I'll probably never forget.
-p.s. This must be one of the most embarrasing quotes I've ever made.
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