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i quit witty but i have nothing else to vent to cuz my diary's full. oh & don't read cuz it's not interesting. gfhjskg i don't know what to do anymore. my only friends are a year older than me. &i think they even secretly hate me too. the friends i have in my grade are amazing. they're funny and nice and they're the best friends ever. but none of them care about me. they care but they don't like me. they're constantly annoyed with me. they don't trust me. they think i'm obnoxious and rude and annoying and they think i put other people first. when i don't. i love them but they don't love me so i don't even try to get them to care. i dont wanna bother them. i constantly feel alone. i know that a lot of my grade doesn't like me. because of stupid rumors that people told them. i didn't do anything bad. i told my best friend (at the time) something because it was about her crush... i thought she'd care. and now one person hates me which led to another which led to another which led to another. all my friends are friends with people who hate me. i know it's their choice of who they're friends with, it just makes me feel alone &awkward. i can't wait until summer so i don't have to deal with feeling sad and alone every day. i'm loud and annoying at school and i don't mean to be. it's who i am and i wanna change but it's not that easy. the only thing i'm happy about is nobody's seen my wrists. i feel pressured in my relationship and i can't even talk to my friends about it because they'll probably think i talk about my relationship too much. i have nobody because of that. my friends are so good at pretending to like people. i witness it every day, them talking to people they don't really like, pretending to like them. what should make me believe they're not doing that to me? i love them so much. so so so much. they might like me i guess.. but i don't think they want me around ever. or trust me. nobody texts me first. nobody tells me anything. nobody's done anything to prove it. except one girl who i love with all my heart. two actually. but they're not in my grade. and they're probably better off without me too. i hate myself. i hate everything i've done. i regret so much. i don't want to sound like i'm suicidal or anything. i'm not, i'd never kill myself. but if i were to wake up in the hospital and hear a doctor say, "she's not gonna make it" .. i don't think i'd care. (&nobody else would either.)
When you lose someone, someone you love, when they break your heart. It's the hardest thing you could ever go through. No matter how much time has passed, it never really goes away. You may think you're getting better, but then you get a flashback or hear a song that reminds you of it, and it hits you, all over again, all at once, like a stab in the chest. You fall apart for the hundredth time. You feel like going to sleep but you never want to wake up. You love this person with all of your heart, even though you know you shouldn't. They hurt you worse than you've ever been hurt before. They stole your happiness. But yet, you still want them, and only them. Other people may come along and give you chances to move on, but you can't. You're still terrified. Terrified of getting hurt again. But none of that matters, because you can never move on from your first love anyway. You don't want to miss them anymore. You don't want to love them anymore, but you know you always will. ♥
ALL I EVER WANTED was to feel like someone wanted me. was to feel like people cared about me. was to feel like i'm worth something to someone. was to be told i mattered. was to be someone's best friend. was to be a number one choice. was to feel l o v e d.
About a month ago, My mom went to the hospital. She has a disease similar to lung cancer, and she had stomach pains. Not just normal tummy aches where you take Tums and then you're all better. From her description, it felt like she was in labor. It hurt that bad. My father screamed at me to call 911, so I did. I called 911 and I watched the ambulances take my mommy away from me. She was in the hospital for about 5 days before she could leave. Did I make 783247209 quotes about it, saying "please fave for my mommy!!!"? No. I didn't even post anything about it on Witty. What I'm saying is, making a quote on Witty won't stop your best friend's cancer to go away, or help your dog recover through it's kidney problems. It won't get your crush to like you, it won't prove your love for God. Don't make quotes just for faves. If your dad is in the hospital, don't make a Witty quote about it to make people feel bad for you. Go to the freaking hospital and spend as much freaking time with your dad as possible. There's a difference between venting to witty and asking for faves. That's all I'm saying.
confession 6; people tell me i'm pretty, but i honestly just don't see it. i don't think i'm ugly because i don't think ugly exists, but i don't find myself attractive or cute. it hurts being with pretty friends.
confession 4; this quote is to skittelgal810. me and her were best friends since second grade and in october we ended that. i've heard rumors that she talks about me behind my back and i let that get me mad. i still hear those rumours, but i also hear that my leaving her made her upset and suicidal. i just want to say, sydney, i never meant for any of that, i just knew we were both better off without eachother. i want to let you know you're a beautiful, funny, sweet, charming person and i'm sorry for any pain i've brought you. i know you talk about me behind my back but i don't really care anymore, everyone talks about people. so i just want to say, i'm sorry.
confession 3; i'm twelve years old. i've cut myself, made myself throw up, scratched myself until i bled, and worse. i started at eleven. every day i go to school, happy and laughing. nobody notices. i think that's just sad that 12 year olds have to go through this, i find it sad that anybody has to go through this.