When you lose someone,
someone you love, when they break your heart. It's the hardest thing you could ever go through. No matter how much time has passed, it never really goes away. You may think you're getting better, but then you get a flashback or hear a song that reminds you of it, and it hits you, all over again, all at once, like a stab in the chest. You fall apart for the hundredth time. You feel like going to sleep but you never want to wake up. You love this person with all of your heart, even though you know you shouldn't. They hurt you worse than you've ever been hurt before. They stole your happiness. But yet, you still want them, and only them. Other people may come along and give you chances to move on, but you can't. You're still terrified. Terrified of getting hurt again. But none of that matters, because you can never move on from your first love anyway. You don't want to miss them anymore. You don't want to love them anymore, but you know you always will. ♥