I'm not sure many people understand what exactly I make quotes about. Not that many people really pay attention either, but I'd like to talk about it.
I am an insomniac with depression.
I'm sure some of you can relate.
For those of you who can, you know how terrible that mix is. For those of you who can't, I'll explain. Insomnia is a sleeping condition, one in which you cannot sleep due to stress, or just rapid thoughts, kind of like an ADHD mind: you jump from thought to thought and cannot stay focused or secure your energy to a certain level. Having depression, what happens to me, personally, thoughts of depression are overwhelming, because it is all you can think. You think one terrible thought, which leads to another, and to another, and to another... a never ending cycle, and a torturous inescapable hell.
You feel as if you're insane...and I very well may be.
My quotes are generalized feelings I have dealing with these two things.
Now, I'm sure you're wondering what the point of all this is, exactly.
I want to relate.
I want to help.
I want to show other teenagers, that they are not the only ones up all night. You're not the only one who breaks down in the middle of the day, without another soul knowing. There is someone else out there who's depression is secret, though scars are not hidden. I, too, go unnoticed.
And if anyone, ever, needs to talk about what they're feeling.
You are not alone... I am right here with you.
crazyshaelie