I suppose most people see my as a happy person. My friends have no idea about this situation,pretty much no one does. I feel like I dont belong in my family. I have a mum, a dad, two brothers and a dog. My mum and dad are divorced, and have been for about 6 years. My mum started dating a man soon after the divorce and she was with him until this year. He had been cheating on my mum, and she was so angry at him, she kicked him out. I was glad to see him go, I have never really liked him, no matter how many times he took us on holiday, or spent money on trips for us, he was nothing like my dad. I had always wanted my mum and dad to get back together, and i’m pretty sure that my dad has always loved her in the same way he did before the divorce. When my dad found out he had cheated, he was more angry than my mum was. Recently, my mum has been meeting up with her ex, and I have always asked her why. She says it’s because she wants to, and that I never let her be happy. She doesn’t realise that I’m dying inside everytime I know she’s met up with him. He’s at my house right now, and is in the garden with my mum. I’m crying my eyes out,hiding in my room, and no one notices or cares. I seen them before. I looked out the window to see them kissing, and my heart was racing, and I felt suffocated. I ran into my room, and burst out crying. My mum said they weren’t together, and they were. Secretly. She never tells me anything, she doesn’t want me knowing about her relationships, she doesn’t want my opinion, and she doesn’t care how I feel about this man. All I want is for my mum to spend time with me, give me hugs, try and make a conversation with me. So i’ll stay here, probably all day, crying,while she will carry on with her life. I just feel like I need to tell someone, just not the people involved. Thankyou.
chlobo