love at first site
chapter twenty
i woke up, the light was comming through a crack in the curtain, i looked to my right, Jake was there, i quietly watched him sleep, he never left me. My head was slashed with little bits of hair, the doctors had decided to stall the kemo theropy for now because they did not want anything to happen to my baby, Jake woke up and saw the fear in my eyes, he walked over to the side of the hospital bed and grabbed my hand and quietly sand 'miserable at best' by mayday parade " katie i know your trying your hardest" he whispered "but the hardest part is letting go" i finished as looked down at my stomach, i have been pregnant for 6 months, i look like a stick with a ball atached to her stomache, we both new there is a very high possibility of me dying, "you wont die" he whispered " your the strongest person i know you can do anything" he said, his voice rising. i looked around blinking fast trying to keep the tears from falling, but one crept out. Sometimes your traveling a highway the only road youve ever known and WHAM a huge semi comes from out of nowhere and rolls right over you. Sometimes you dont wake upbut if you happen to you know things will never be the same. Sometimes thats not so bad. Sometimes lives intersect, no ryme, no reason, exept, perhaps for a passing semi, my dad always told me "luck comes to those who need it most" but the thing is , do i not deserve live? god or whoever is listening, ive never been much of a religous person, but whoevers there what did i do to deserve this? im happy ive had a good life i just wish there was a button that could magically make a cure, i never asked for this desease, ive always wanted to grow old with someone i love to see my children grow up to whiter away when i deserve to. But ive learned that life is full of Chances and sometimes you run out, sometimes your raibow leaves and you bowl of luck falls, but ive been hit by 100's of semi's and i havent fallen, not yet.
2 1/2 months later
i woke up to a wet feeling, " UMM! jake i whispered i think - - my water just broke" i said "shhiiittttt" he said as he jumped up and yelled to the doctors.................. i knew this was probably the end, i had spent my last two months having people buy my baby clothes and making sure that Jake and my parents had custody of my baby Cody, yes, i decided on cody, why? well... why not? ... after losts of pushing and pain i saw the doctor hold up my cody "baby" i cooed as they put him in my arms i kissed his forehead "ill always be here" i whisped as i pointed to his heart, my family was around my, the love of my life was beside me and i felt good " its - - time to say goodbye now ashley" dr.chang said, i new i was so weak i could barely move, "goodbye my baby" i whispered as they brought him away " goodbye mom, goodbye dad, look for me in your heart" i said as they kissed my cheeks, " goodbye babygirl, dadys number one" my dad said tears filling his eyes " i love you both so much" i said letting my hand fall, as i watched them walk out tears began to come, i needed to find the strength to have my last moments with Jake, " Jake i - - love you more than the world your my heaven and ill meet you wherever you go, keep care of cody show him pictures of me , let him know who i am.. " i said " dont - - dont leave me ashley" he screetched tears rolling of his cheeks " i love you baby" he said grabbing my hand, my eyes slowly started to close " goodbye hazel eyes" i heard him coe , and for once in my life i got hit, harder than ever by a semi, and this time i got ran over, in the end no matter what, one day you'll have to leave the world sometimes early when everyone you love is mouring over you, and other times when you die to late and you world had already been taken away. and sometimes, just sometimes, you leave with a heart full of joy.
THE END
okay so i think im going to make a sequel about Jake raising Cody as a single dad.any ideas? thanks girlies <3
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