I THOUGHT I COULD HOLD BACK. I thought maybe I wouldn't cry. I was fine at first. I thought it wouldn't effect me at all. I thought I would be ohkay. I was wrong. I'm far from ohkay. I loved you. Correction, I DO love you. And that is one thing that will never change. I don't think it's possible. You changed me. You gave me a different look on life. You made the past 5 months worth living when all I wanted to do was die. And I thank you for that. But it's over now. I know I ended it, but maybe I did the wrong thing. Maybe we could have just talked it out instead of this. Maybe........, I thought I was gonna be ohk. Maybe i wouldn't cry. Then I thought of everything, all of our memories, our conversations. our good, our bad.Our 7th grade year together. When I first started liking you. When you 1st asked me out, I was so happy, I couldn't stop jumping around or smiling. I thought of our mistakes we made, and how we fixed them and got through them, I thought of all the times I went back to you, and all the times you came back to me. I knew there was a reason for it. And as I thought of all this, I realized tears rolling down my face. And I just broke down. And tomorrow, I'll act like everything is ohk, I'll put a fake smile on my face, but, if you look closely, you'll see teardrops on my pillows, tear tracks on my cheeks, red eyes, and messed up make-up. And thats all that I created.
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