I know I said I was done using this account. But I needed to get this out and I didnt want all my friend to see it. I told my bestfriend that I feel like hes never here for me anymore because he has a girlfriend now. All of a sudden all these memories come rushing back, I remember when he used to say he was always here for me no matter when where or for what. I remember when he used to say he would comeover and just hangout with me to cheer me up. I remember when he used to crack jokes randomly when i was upset just to make me laugh. When he used to say he wanted to snuggle. He used to tell me everything was going to be okayy everyday. I want that back, I want my bestfriend back. I get that all cant come back because he has a girlfriend, but his girlfriend understands my depression too. He told me he shud focus more on his friends but he and her are together for a long time. I told him I get that, but its really hard for me to be here and wait for him to be how he used to be again. and that i dont want to lose him, because I will be right there next to him anytime he needs me. I just wish it was the same for me. I want my bestfriend back. I miss him. I miss you Matt</3