Today, for the first time in about a year I logged back on this site. I read every quote and story that I have ever posted. It kind of made me sad when I read the most personal things I posted, It made me realize how much things change. It makes me sad, but it also makes me smile because I know that when I fall into a difficult time I know things will change, and things WILL get better.
I wrote mostly quotes of love and how I thought I would never find that, but now I realize that finding that one person that I truely love is not going to happen when Im this young. I have my whole life to find that person. I also remember being scared that I would never get my first kiss, I still haven't but I know now that I just need to be patient, I will find that one guy that sweeps me off my feet and doesn't care that still haven't had my first kiss. In fact he should be happy because then he can say he was the first, and when I find that person, hey who knows, maybe they could be the last as well.
I also remember crying my heart out at night over the jealousy of all the couples that would walk around my school holding hands and kissing in the hallway, but now I see those same people walking the hallways, alone, or moving on to another guy within weeks, or throwing away everything they have for a guy, and sometimes I still cry, but not in jealousy, i cry because i feel bad for them, they didn't want that, they thought they were in love, but people change, life changes, everything is different.
So I guess I can say, that although I have never had my first kiss, my first love, my first heartbreak, I've learned a lot about relationships. And If anyone has read this far, the number one thing i want you to know is that Life changes, people change, so don't rush, don't use the 'L' word unless you know for sure that they are right for you, live life for yourself, and never ever settle for less than you are worth, dont sell yourself short, think highly, and achieve greatness. No matter what, you will face changes and there is no stopping that so just go with the flow and never regret a single thing.
PrincessHailey