Triggered. Chapter Two.
I started walking to school, not really in a big hurry. Just as I got out of the block I headed to the park. I sat down on one of the benches that faced the street. I sat there for a good five minutes before I busted out into tears. Great heaving sobs that sounded sad. I hadn’t cried like this since I found out every time I did, John could hear me. The next time he would see me he would tease me and call me names like ‘cry baby’, ‘blubber butt’, ‘whiney hinny’.
I couldn’t stop crying, and I felt ugly for crying so much. When I cry, I snot cry and it’s extremely unattractive. I pulled a few tissues out of my book back and cleaned my face after I had stopped crying. I got up and trashed the tissue, then I headed for school; again. I hung my head and listened to The Catalyst by Linkin Park. I stopped at a cross walk and waited to the signal to walk across the street.
The school, two more blocks away. The rate I’m walking at I’m going to be late for first period. I took a step off the curb and started to walk across the street, the only thing I could hear is, ‘Lift me up, let me go.’ Suddenly there was a loud honking right next to me; I looked up just in time to see the boy in the mustang stopping. I looked around and the light was green for him to go.
The boy stuck his head out of his window. His dark blue eyes focused on me.
“Get in, I’ll give you a ride” Is all he said, in a voice soft but deep.
I walked across the street and kept walking. He didn’t even bother to try and get me in his car again, he just drove off to school; leaving me behind.
Once I got to school, I went to the office and got a tardy note; then headed to first period. Everyone stared as I walked in, even the teacher; Mr. Ross. I silently walked over to him and handed him the note, then went to my lab seat in the back next to Katie Shaw.
Katie watched me as I walked to my seat next to her. “Buying drugs for your inbred parents again Annie-poo?” She smirked at her own joke. I sat there not saying anything to her like I normally do every day. She scoffed and gave me a dirty look like she always does. Does she ever get tiered of doing that? I asked myself.
I pulled out my Chemistry note book and took notes all period. Katie kept bumping my elbow and making me mess up. I stopped writing and put my pencil down. I turned to her and glared at her. Katie looked as if she was satisfied that she got a reaction from me.
“Why the hell do you always mess with me?” I spat at her.
She looked shocked, surprised that I spoke.
A playful smile came across her lips and she said, “So little baby Annie-poo does speak.” She paused making sure the students around us listened to what she was about to say. “You know, your little name I gave you matched that little voice of yours.”
I glared at her waiting for more.
“It’s like this; little voice to match a little person.” She leaned in close to me and whispered this last part. “I bet if someone was, I don’t know. Beating the life out of your little body, you could scream and no one could hear you.” The smile on her face vanished and she looked dead serious. Then she said, “Happy Halloween Annie-poo.”
Throughout the rest of the day up until lunch I didn’t speak to anyone, not the teachers, not my class mates, not even my other partners. Today, really just wasn’t my day. I sat down outside where Amber and I usually eat lunch and waited for her. After she had gotten her lunch Amber and Cory came walking up to me still laughing like they had been on the bus.
“Hey babe.” Amber said as she sat down next to me. Cory nodded at me and sat next to Amber. I lay back on the cool soft grass, my face shaded by the tall tree that grew there. I closed my eyes and in that moment everything faded away. All the bad thoughts I keep having; gone. My breathing slowed along with my heart rate.
A touch of my leg jolted me upward; I ended up head butting Cory and falling back down. “Ouch, ouch, ouch.” I kept repeating as I held my forehead. Cory rubbed his forehead and stood over me. “I’m so, so sorry. Nine, are you all right?” He asked as he gently pulled me up. I nodded and rubbed at my forehead; I can feel a headache starting up.
“I really didn’t mean to scare you like that… It’s just that I wanted to talk to you.” I looked at Amber and she had a wide smile on her face. I looked back at Cory, his face full of hope. I nodded and grabbed my things and stood up careful not to hit Cory again. I took two steps with him and tripped over Amber’s feet; Cory caught me without hesitation.
“Careful Annie-poo; wouldn’t want to mess up that pretty little face of yours.” Katie called over to me from her group of snobby friends; her friends burst out laughing at this. I looked down at my feet and kept walking. Cory was following me close behind. As soon as we got far enough from Katie and her group of friends we stopped and sat on the far side of the school where there were more trees. Most couples go to this side of the school because security sucks and there are more places to do ‘it’.
Cory cleared his throat and looked at me square in the face. His smile seemed so shy, yet nervous at the same time it twitched a few times. I looked at his bright blue eyes and smiled a bit at him trying to lighten his mood. Instead of talking we looked around at the beauty of the trees, kind of close together but beautiful all the same.