Hey, if you're reading this I miss you much. I wish you were here right now to tell me that stupid boy isn't worth my tears. I wish you were here to hold me close and make stupid jokes about how you're gonna shoot him when you see him again. I wish you were here right now to comfort me and take me to McDonald's and get me that big dumb junky order of fries, a milkshake, and a double cheeseburger, and then make fun of me for dipping the fries in the milkshake. I wish you were here right now to walk 4 miles in the middle of the night Pokémon hunting with me. I wish you were here right now to tell me you don't even notice that dumb pimple. I wish you were here right now to check up on me every couple of minutes, because I use to get so annoyed. I wish you were with me giving me advice on what the hell I should do right now. I took you for granted, and I miss you much.
_________________________________ I wish someone would look at me and notice the bloodshot eyes by the tears that fall at night I wish someone would look at me and realize the bruises on my thighs I wish someone would look at me and sympathize on how pale I've become I wish someone would look at me and see that I'm so numb I wish someone would just look at me that would say everything I need so I wouldn't bleed. ________________________________
I've decided that I hate you. I hate you more now than I've ever loved you. You still want to play the victim, don't you? this is all my fault, isn't it? I drove you to her arms, didn't I? You didn't do anything wrong, right? It's not what it seems, is it? I've got the wrong idea, don't I? you want to explain, right? Too fúcking bad for all of it, because I hate you. Ten things I wish I said to you last night.
I want the "old" you I want the you that use to sing me to sleep I want the you that used to hold me when I cried I want the you that told me he loved me everyday I want the you that kissed me to say good morning I want the you that held me during scary movies I want the you that told me I was beautiful I want the you that didn't hide everything from me I want the you that dropped anything to be with me I want the you that use to look at me and smile I want the you that held me every night I want the you that remembered the little things I want the you that loved me "unconditionally" I want the you that liked my craziness I want the you that laughed with me I want the you that I first met I want the you that I feel in love with
I want to have nice hair I want to have pretty eyes I want to have fuller lips I want to have clear skin I want to have longer legs I want perfectly white and straight teeth I want to have a smaller nose I want to have an hourglass figure I want to be taller I want to be funnier I want to be smarter I want to be pretty I want to be sexy I just want to be b e a u t I f u l so that you will love me like I love you