Hey im savannah,
just a teenage girl
trying to get by
and make it through this
terrible and lonley
thing we call life.
my friends think im fine and so happy..
but i cant remember what being happy feels like...
i cant remember the last time i stayed happy for longer then a couple minutes..
i dont understand whats wrong with me
i dont understand why i am the way i am
i dont know why its so hard for me to be happy
its hard for me to talk to people
its hard to show how i actually feel
heey, im just a teenage girl.. trying to make it through this thing called life.. as it drains you and breaks you until you can hardly breath and you wish it would just finish the job right here right now but at the last second it losens its grip and the the whole cyle starts over again. being happy is rare and as days go by its becoming more and more rare you think to yourself that you cant be happy its impossible to be happy impossible to stay happy something is wrong and you cant seem to figure out what it is i know i should talk but i dont know how i say a few words and everything starts crubling down like im climbing a mountain and i get to the top and as i reach for the last rock i slip and fall into a black hole of darkness and saddness but this happends everyday nothing new the black hole is becoming stronger as it pulls me to the center and soon I will be lost forever
Me: guees what happened to me today My crush:what Me: i got attacked by a rooster My crush:oh Me:i get attacked by a rooster and you say oh, yeah love you too:p hahaa My crush:hahahah lol sorry that really sucks are you ok babe your not hurt are you :) hahaa I like the second responce better<3
Its as though everyone is becoming unhappy, The world is becoming such a terrifying place for people, they cant be happy, its hard for people to become happy, its hard for people to stay happy, the happy people.. are becoming very rare.. </3
i cant stop crying..i dont know what to do.. my best friend in the whole world..we have known eachother since we were in dipers.. he started cutting.. hes so depressed.. hes even pushing me away and hes not even telling me this stuff..one of his best friends is tellling me.. im crying my eyes out.. i dont want to lose him </3
Im such a freaking mess up! i say everything at the wrong time! i ruin my friendships and relationships! i want to curl up into a ball and just die.. or sleep my life away and never wake up.. im a mistake.. i bet everyone would be so much happier if i wasnt on this planet anymore! jeezzz..why cant i do anything righttt!! </3
sitting in my closet, trying not to cry.. im torn apart and nobody cares.. im alone on my own with no one to talk to.. my ex/best friend hates me and wont talk to me.. he wont even tell me what i did wrong.. but i guess i found out the reason today.. im ugly.. i got called an ugly ho by someone i dont even know.. as i sit here and try to to cry.. i can feel myself slowly dieing inside.. my lifes falling apart and spiraling out of control.. everythings my fault.. now..i dont want to go to school.. i dont want to be home... i wish i could just run away for awhile.. get away from everything in this horrible world..</3
I miss you, I Love you, My heart is broken and cant be fixed, Im falling to peices, Ive fallen in a black hole filled with silence and darkness, Trying to find my way out, but the memories keep pushing me deeper and deeper... im drownding in a puddle of saddness, with each gulp of air, I feel my heart shatter alittle bit more, when will the sun shine again? when will the rainstorm in my eyes stop? when will the pain of knowing and not knowing stop? when will the scars heal, why does going one more day sound so impossile to get through, when will the pain of everyday dissapear like stars in the daytime, why cant i get you off my mind... everywhere i go and everything i do..i see you.. not with my eyes, but with my mind and heart, i go to school only because the mear second im busy.. your not on my mind, Just one more time, I want to be with you, One last tme, one last goodbye. </3
so im graduating middle school this year.. we had to fill out a paper that we will get back when we graduat senior year.. one of the questions was..who was your biggest crush.. i am best friends with one of my ex's and on our way home from a feild trip last night.. we were talking and he told me that he wrote my name so that question.. then he kept saying no jk i wrote my right hand.. he texted me a couple minutes after and said he actually wrote my name.. how sweet is that? i was so surprised when he said that
Me:If you had to describe us in one word, what would it be? kclove5 kclove5 Him:Perfect kclove5 kclove5 Me:aww<33 kclove5 kclove5 Him:wbu kclove5 kclove5 Me:insane haha kclove5 kclove5 Him:y ty XD kclove5 kclove5 Me:haha i like your answer better Him:Me 2 i love you 7-23-11<3 Format by kclove5 kclove5/creator
Why? why do i even get my hopes up? why do i let myself get my hopes up? why did i think this time would be different? something always comes up and you cant come.. i end up crying because i get so excited and then i just get let down here we go, another month until we make plans to hangout and then get let down again why do i even try anymore.. this happens every single time</3
ahhhhh, i am sooooo exciteddd for tomorrowww(: i have never been so excited to see someone in my whole lifeee!! i get to see my boyfriend for the first time in 9 monthssss!!! omgggg!! i cant waiittttt(: i lovee youuuu geofff<3333
venting..... Have you ever been so confused you just dont know what to do? i miss how close we used to be. i miss our long talks at night when neither of us want to go to sleep until the other one does. i miss our crazy talks we used to have where our friends would think we are weird. i miss being able to hear your voice. i miss being able to hold your hand so tight and for so long that we got red marks on our hands because we didnt want to let go. i miss waking up and knowing you were there. i miss waking up and smiling becuase i know that you love and miss you. i know you still love and miss me. you tell me you do. but sometimes just telling me doesnt prove it. you got a new cell phone...we talk less then when you didnt have a cell phone. i text you hi and you say hey and i say whats up and then i dont hear from you again until i text you again. do you know how annoying that makes me feel?? i say i love and miss you when i have to stop texting you or when you go t obed..do you say it back? not anymore. all i want to do is cry. i think this distance is starting to get to me big time. its been over 8 months since the last time i saw you in person and i feel like..idk..i dont even know how i feel anymore. but i do love you..i always will. but do you still love me as much as i love you?? do you still love me like you used to?? i had the worst day ever and no one noticed. are you there to talk to right now when i need you the most? no. you stopped anwering...but im not gonna text you again because i feel annoying..why dont you understand any of this anymore... i miss you</3
even tho i live a hour away we still mange to be together an love each other even we hardly talk we both hear each other in our hearts an minds saying i love u dont u forget that even tho its been 4 months senes we saw each other every day i look up to the sky an see her face then think i gota go see her this summer every time i look at ur picture i smile every time i read the note book i shed a tear all i can say is i love u my boyfriend put this as his status on fb..i couldnt stop smiling..i keep re reading it...i miss him so muchh..sometimes it gets hard because the distance..but we make it work and its amazing<3 i love him<3