Hi there...
It's Giaaaa!
Or Chia! (AJ <3 calls me that)
I may seem happy, but I'm not really. I've started cutting again, and starving again too. It's just so hard not to, once you do it once, you can't stop. I stopped for like 3 months, but I've started again. I think I'm just depressed, because life constantly pisses me off, and theres nothing I can do about it. Everything bothers me. I'm extremely paranoid too. I feel like no one actually likes me, like it's all lies. I can never shake that feeling, no matter how hard I try. In the back of my mind, I scream be yourself, but I want to fit in, to be thin, not to be the know-it-all, but to keep good grades, to be able to do something right for once, to know what it's like to be held in someones arms, to be kissed in front of everyone, and not caring, to feel loved. I want to be part of something, not to be different, or an outcast.
If you're still reading my profile:
I love music, especially CADY GROVES and CHRISTINA GRIMMIE! <333
I listen to a lot of flyleaf and rock too. I love fall, friends, AJ (even if he does have a girl friend, and a history of kinda being a player), texting, and witty. I am a really emotional person. I've changed so much this summer. I've become stronger, but weaker. I cringe when cutting comes up, and I grab my wrist. I feel fat when I take 1 bite of food around ANYONE, and I just can't stand anyone touching my wrist. I feel like even though the scars are gone, I feel like they'll know. That's my biggest fear. That someone will find out.
GoodGirlGonaBad