I miss you so much;
We knew this day would come. The day we'd have to end what we had to keep everyone else happy. I'm not angry with you. We both knew all along that this day was going to come, I just hate the fact that it came so soon. I guess it was kind of like a Romeo and Juliet kind of relationship. We were happy, but there was people who wouldn't accept it. There was people who wouldn't allow us to be together. People that we love, who wouldn't allow us to be happy. If we could run away, just the two of us, I'd do it. If we could leave everyone behind, everyone who we loved and cared for, I wouldn't even hesitate. I've never been this deep in. But I'm stuck and I can't get out. I can feel myself slipping into depression again. I want you to know that none of this is your fault. I never for a second blamed you. But I do promise you that I'll wait for you, I'll wait forever if I have to. I just hope you'll wait too. I know you love me and I love you too. But just like Romeo and Juliet, that doesn't matter to anyone. The way they see it, is we did something wrong. They think what we did was terrible. But they don't see the beauty of it. The way you make me feel absolutely beautiful. Like nothing could ever hurt me. The way I feel safe in your arms and how I'm not self conscious of my body while we're together. That's something special and no one else has ever given me the same feeling. I guess in a way you were my first love and you always will be. I'm not going to lie. I've told people I love them before, and not because they said it first, but because I was to young and naive to realise that it wasn't love. With you, everything was different. It was like the sun was shining brighter. I wont ever be able to replace that feeling, nor will I want to. As much as it kills me to watch you walk away, I know, deep down, that it's what you had to do. I just wish they would accept it. So we can be together. It kills me sitting here, listening to these songs, writing this quote, wondering if maybe you're going to listen to them, and move on. Find someone who they'll be happy with. It scares the crap out of me. I want you to be happy, more then anything in the world, even if it means you being with someone else. I know it's going to hurt, and I know it'll kill me inside, but I just want you to be happy. I love you and I know you love me too. I just hate the fact that sometimes love's just not enough. I love you, my blue-eyed angel. And I'll love you for every day to come.
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