Beside Myself
Ch. 1
All alone. I should be used to it now. But what can I say? It does nothing but bother me.
My sister Claire and my mother fought again. Claire was yelling because mom didn't let her go to the mall with her best friend Joslin. Who cares about the mall? It's boring, and all you do is shop. My friends like it, and keep forcing me to go with them.
I flip on the TV. No use wasting this valuable alone time. Commercials. Always, commercials. I flip through until I get to Toddlers and Tiaras. My favorite show! I love watching little girls get treated like barbie dolls.
This super crazy mom has a daughter with ADD. That's sad. I don't like it when girls have disorders. Because then they think they're not beautiful.
I watch about another 20 minutes of it when my friend Bethaney calls.
"Yeah? What's up Beth?"
"Oh Renee you won't believe this!" Bethaney squeals.
"What? What is it?" I ask.
"Johnny just asked me out for pizza! I'm leaving in an hour! Oh what should I wear? What do I say?" Bethaney trills.
"Beth, relax! Wear something casual yet cute. And I thought Johnny was dating Sally!" I joke.
"Oh, stop that Renee! I would have asked you to come shopping with me earlier, but you know, you hate it."
"Oh...who cares? You have enough clothes."
"Uh, excuse me? Do you even speak girl? We never have enough clothes!" Bethaney stresses.
"Well, ANYWAY, how did he even get the guts to ask you out?"
"I don't know! But he called at noon and I had a spoonful of Spaghetti O's in my mouth so I sounded like a complete fool but he understood and I guess he got really nervous because it took him a whole half hour to ask me and when he finally did, I was like 'SURE!!' and then I hung up and finished my lunch and took a nap and woke up and watched some T.V. and I called you and here we are!"
I felt like going to bed after that whole thing. See, Bethaney has a habit of talking too fast.
"Whew! Well, I'm happy for you! Say, where are you guys going?"
"Bizzy's Pizza, why?"
I take a deep breath. It's a long jump, but I remember Johnny, and my feelings for him.
"I want to come with you."
The silence that follows on the phone is almost eerie.
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