*Bruises and Black Eyes*
Chapter 10
"I still can't decide if meeting you was the saddest or greatest day of my life. Because my heart is still spilt, into two peices made up of love & hatred. And both sides hold your name." -Unknown
The first heartbreak. That moment when you hit rock bottom. If you have ever experienced the first heartbreak, then you know the feeling. It's like you lose control in your whole body, except your chest. You literally feel your own heartbeat, and the sinking feeling begins. Like the upper half of yourself is melting to your feet.
I was in the coffee shop with Logan, who last night was the boy of my dreams. Come to find out, he didn't want to be in my dreams but just in my bed. He sat there, sipping his black coffee, more focused on his pounding head ache.
"Do you love me?" I heard the sound of my voice, yet didn't feel my wet lips move. Logan looked up from his coffee.
"Mel, now you just sound crazy." He looked back at his coffee. I nodded my head; it was pounding. I stood to my feet and ran out the door. I didn't even look back to see if he was watching. I ran as fast as I could down the side walk. 'Keep running' I thought to myself.
Everything is messed up. I'm messed up. Keep running.
I hate this town and I hate the new empty house. Keep running.
I hate high school and everyone in it. Keep running.
I hate the family I don't even have. Keep running.
I hate the fact that the only boy on earth that will put up with me is evil.
Keep running.
I ran until my feet gave out. I was panting, and my lungs were trying to breath. I reached my house when my entire body gave up. I jogged until I reached the green grass of my front lawn, and fell to my knees.
"Mel...?" I looked up. Tyler was standing on the front porch. "I've been ringing your door bell for five minutes. I thought you were asleep." He laughed. I got back up to my feet.
"Leave me alone Tyler." I breathed. I was serious. He blinked at me.
"...What? Why? Did I do something?" He looked so confused.
"Tyler you don't know me. You have no idea who I am. I'm messed up; I have issues. Logan knows I'm messed up.. Sort of. And he's still with me.. Kind of... He's the only boy that will put up with me. Some times I think I'm crazy. Maybe I am. But I'm not just about to dump the boy that I know will put up with me. Okay? So leave."
My hands were in shaking fists. It hurt so much to say it out loud. But I needed to. I needed to end whatever what was going on. Tyler walked down the steps; eyes locked on mine. He marched right over to me. His body met mine and our lips touched. One hand held the back of my neck and the other was around my waist, pulling me into him. Damn was that a kiss. It was the most real kiss I think I've ever had. I almost pinched myself to make sure it wasn't a dream. Tyler pulled away and I'll never forget what he said.
"Mel, we all have issues. One of your issues is trust. You're not ready to jump into a new relationship. It's scary, I know. So, I'll wait. You take your time with Logan, and we'll see how you and I go? It'll be our secret."
And that's how Tyler and I became a thing. Tyler of course had to watch the girl he loved be with the wrong guy for two more years, but he lived with it. As for me, I was the screwed up girl that was inlove with someone who wasn't coming back, yet also inlove with that boy's best friend.
Damn I'm messed up.
Readers-- It is 2 AM and I'm sitting here typing away for you guys. I posted chapter 9 on my profile earlier today. Hope to do chapter 11 tomorrow. I just want to say you guys have been so incredible. The support I have gotten is amazing. I reall really love you guys <3
With a huge amount of love,
Hannah
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