Ok
A year ago today
May 8, 2013
I started to self harm
I don't have many visable scars like
wrists, or thighs, or sholders
but the ones i keep hidden are not so pretty
So since this day a year ago was one of my beginnings
I have decided I'm gonna try and make this day the following year
My end of self harm
This means: no rubber band snapping, nail bitting, scratching, cutting, scraping, bruising, bitting, breaking, or any other form of injury to myself
on purpose
Of course i may fail but my goal is to go as long as i can maybe not be the "end end"
but at least the "beginning of the end"
of course my stories or life isnt as bad as yours and
think that OMG its only been a year get over yourself i have been for 5 or 10 or 3 or 16 well ok then maybe you should try and make this change like me
Im putting in the effort and sure ill get a like lot of depressed but you know thats how life is and im ok with succeeding with my goal
It's time to find a new and better me and of course a year doesnt sound that bad but if its almost every day that this is happening it really does suck
People around me in my life are making changes like this too.
My uncle shared with me a story of his how he self harmed and was on drugs since he was my age and he is finally making changes THIS YEAR and im so proud of him.
My best friend is attempting to make changes.
My cousin is attempting to rid herself of the addictions she has
and my list goes on and on with my family and friends and everyone aroundme...
so since many are making this change i want to too.
I also want to challenge you with this goal
Take the self harm or addictions out of your life and see how long you can go
and if you fail see if you can go even longer the next time
and the next time and the next time
til you finally stop
and maybe you arent struggling with these issues
than maybe just take a bad habit of yours out of your life
one thing you want to change about yourself
I'll support you and you support me
Cuz im there for all of you all
from start to finish
GOOD LUCK AND I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!! :) <3
Kaleidoscope Eyed*