and I wanna say
I'm laying on the road
catching the winters first family of snowflakes in my mouth
and I know it's december
and I know I should take my vitamin D
cause my skin is cold enough to keep the snow alive
I wanna say I am floating face up on a lake
staring at the nightsky
I don't wanna say I'm floating face down,
but both sides seem just as dark
and here I am, just driving, just here
and I don't know if I should
s l o w d o w n or speed up or take the pills or call my mom
and I just keep driving
and I wanna say we are different
I wanna say this darkness is all mine
this constant shade, this intimate eclipse
but I'm not the only one on the highway
I'm not the only one on the staircase to nowhere
and I want to say all of this will go away
I want to say I'll beat this one day
that I'm bigger then my shadow
that I will be here in the morning
but I'm just driving
I'm warming up
I can see my breath
I made it
here's the proof
justkiddiing