For all I love music and I consider the vast majority of bands I listen to as my heroes, the FMX riders...I only have four real heroes.
My mam, because she's always there. She loves us and looks after my eight year old brother and I single handedly while holding a minimum wage, full time job. She's the most important person in my life and I love her with every single piece of me and I need to let her know that more often.
My grandad, because he's been my father figure since I was born, basically. He's always got my back and I can tell him anything. His name was my first word and he'll always be my number one supporter, even when I'm a prat to everyone. I can't imagine my life without him.
My brother. He's eight and he's been through so much. Despite him being younger, I don't think I will ever look up to anyone more than him. He's amazing and special and it kills me everytime I have to remind him that things won't always be bad for him, and that he has to hold his head high and smile, put all of his insecurites aside. He's been through more than a lot of adults have. I wish I could make it through things the way he does.
Jessica. I don't even know what else to say. I've only known her for two years, but she's had such a huge impact on my life. It's her who stopped me cutting when all of my 'so-called' friends gave me death threats and she's one of the only people I can be myself around. We met because our neighbour (a heroin dealer)'s dog (a pitbull cross staffy) attacked ours (a jack russell cross chihuahua) and we ended up getting in a huge fight, which Jessica (who we had never met) intervened in and took a black eye and a concussion from our neighbour's daughter for my mam. She came out as a lesbian in summer and she's had a rough time since then with bullies and people turning away from her. She's held her head high though and that inspires me so much. I don't care that she's six years older than me, I honest to God love her and respect her so much. We're going to be close forever.
Without these four people, I probably wouldn't be here. They're my safety net for when I can't cheer myself up by listening to music. I honestly don't know how I would cope if they weren't there anymore.
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