somewhere between the procrastination, the homework, the
friendships, and the nasty cafeteria food, the calls to old
friends, the i miss yous, and the i love yous, and what are we
doing tonight`s? somewhere between all of the changed and growing
and the skipping classes, the studying for tests, and the
pretending to be studying for tests, and the downriight not
studying for tests, i forgot. ..i forgot what it meant to cry. i
forgot that pretending to be happy doesn`t make you happy. i forgot
that pretending to be smart doesn`t make you smart. and that
pretending to be okay doesn`t make youu okay. i forgot that you
can`t just forget the past in fear of our future.. i forgot that
you can`t control falling in love.. and that youu can`t make
yourself fall in love. i learned.. i learned that i can love.. i
learned that it`s okay to mess up. and it`s okay to ask for help..
and it`s okay to feel like crap.. i learned it`s okay to complain
and whine to all your friends for a whole day.. that somehow
they`ll make it all better. i learned that sometimes the things you
want most you can`t have. i learned that the greatest thing about
school isn`t going to be who is most popular or going to the
parties..not even the hook ups.. it`s the friendships.. which means
taking chances. i learned that sometimes the things we forgive and
forget are the things which we most need to talk out.. i learned
that letters from friends are the most important thing.. and that
sending cards to your friends makes youu feel better.. but
basically, i just learned that my friends, both old and new, are
the most important people to me in the world....