and i have been trying
to pick up the pieces but you keep holding onto one. holding it
above my head as if it's a game. when i'm couragous you
hold tightly onto that piece. you outstretch your arm, as far as
you can go. it's silly, it's too far. you only know it
hurts when my tears fall.
when i've given in to cowardice and accepted your embrace.
when i can't hold my emotions back any longer. it's only
then when you give it back to me. you only let me be whole when
you're holding me. how did i get here?
miscommunication and emotional unavailability. you are the
embodiment of my nightmares. you stand tall before me with a
smile. do you see what's happening? i'm in the palm of
your hand and you're so happy. you're always so happy
when you see me. you truly don't know my
heart.
