Mm i suppose everythings alright. Fell back into the pit of being drunk and high all the time. I hate the fact that I look at Ethan and despise him. I hate that i love him for the fact hes a baby and hes so pure and innocent. Yet I hate the fact of how hes here. Why hes here. Hate that I cant even look at my own belly for the fact I could have had that. Devils spawn; whatever you said. I hate that Im no longer in control of things. I hate that Im so damn hateful. (Weds @5:37 pm)