Rubbed Raw, And Reeling. I admit it, i did something incredibly
stupid. Something full of deceit. I knew i shouldnt have.. but i
did. I wanted that rush. That type of rush every teenager
experiences when she does something rebellious. The knowing you
went against all odds, and proved others, even yourself, wrong. I
craved for the touch that i was curious for. Truthfully, i thought
this moment was just the product of adolescent chemistryenthriced
by the same admiration. The numbness, the nerves, the vulnerability
of that touch. Electrifies like circuits around your body. The
guilt sets in knowing your innocence has been revoked. That first
time, that only occurs once in your life, completely changes you.
You feel oddly different, temporarily good, but very much,
blemished emotionally. The uncertainty rushes in through short
sparks of self proudness. It the weirdest bittersweet self
discovery that consumes you with the bitter than that delightful
sweet. My advice, wait. Wait until you find someone who'd make that
bittersweet moment, utterly beautiful. That takes away that horrid
bitter, that you never want to face again. Someone who knows your
flaws and will accept your gorgeous vulnerability. Thats how it
should be.