"Much of
my life had been devoted to trying not to cry in front of people
who loved me, so I knew what Augustus was doing. You clench your
teeth. You look up. You tell yourself that if they see you cry,
it will hurt them, and you will be nothing but A Sadness in their
lives, and you must not become a mere sadness, so you will not
cry, and you say all of this to yourself while looking up at the
ceiling, and then you swallow even though your throat does not
want to close and you look at the person who loves you and
smile."
- John Green,
The Fault in our stars