..I..I did it again. i didnt mean to, i didnt mean to..i didnt mean to. I had to. everyone has something awful going on and who am i to cry and sob and scream, making my pain everyones pain?? I have no right to do that. None. And I hate myself for needing to cry and sob loudly and uncontrollably, when I cant. I can't or she'll hear or he'll hear. I cant Be heard. I cant Let Myself be heard. So I do the only thing I can do. I cut myself, to stop the Scream. Because I wont live with myself if I Scream.